Learnings

So far this semester, I have learned a lot about myself through this job hunting process.  While it is not going as quickly or as smoothly as I would have liked, I am learning a lot about how I deal with the uncertainty and stress.  On one hand, I like to regain as much control as I possibly can by planning out "what ifs" for as many situations as possible.  On the other hand, I stress out about this to the point that I cannot really live in the moment.  I am working on being able to accept that I will not always have control over it, but the uncertainty is really getting to me as of right now.  As with anyone else, there is so much other stuff going on in my life that is creating a lot more uncertainty, as well.  I got really comfortable in the last year and a half with how things were, and now that is most likely going to be wildly different in the upcoming months, and I don't like that.  I do like the impending change--I am really looking forward to beginning my career and even potentially moving somewhere brand new, but I want it to be somewhat under my control, and it's not.  I am trying to change how much I check my email or my job applications, because it is getting in the way of doing other things, and is just unproductive and creating more stress for me.  Other than that, I'm just trying to remain healthy and manage my stress through working out and taking plenty of time out for myself (maybe sometimes too much?).